updates of me~~

woke up at 5.45am after drinking at 4.30am..
prepare up and rush to the station for bus..
yeap.. stone inside the bus and sleep until dunno what the hell is going on..
finally.. when i open my eye.. it's NY!
been to the red lobster @ time square.
continue to the exhibition hall for shows.. hmmm.. not as nice as FHM..
well..
continue walking around the cities..
look look + see see + walk walk
eat eat also..
then oso walk walk + stone stone + see see
i dunno what to write la.. my brain not working adee..
XD

unsolved

I don't know why, perhaps i knew it..
It's almost 2 months.. a few days more..
I knew for breaking my promise to meet you up is totally unacceptable before my flight..
I've apologized for that, just can't you reply in a polite way rather than sarcastic way?
I've spent most of my time with you before i leave,
And i do need to spend it with my friend as well.
I've tried my best to full fill you with my abilities..
Look.. not to say I am blaming on you or saying i am correct all the time.
Yes, I did a lot of mistake..
just see
*I spent 1 night of farewell party till dawn until all those clean ups, a few hours of sleep and continue with 2 days of seminar, came back dinner with friends, back home last minutes packing till dawn.. feel into sleep for less than 4 hours (which i broke my promise), woke up and continue pack and bring things for my friend and continue packing.. even Jamie, Jane, Elaine came and I got no time to wait but to get things done.. *alright see it's my fault for late packing.. but there is a lot of time we could grab a drink and chill around..*
I don't know why you did that for just that reason?
It's not all the time things are flowing in your way..
There is certain time things goes the other way round..
Peoples could stand at your situation and think,
But did you tried to do so at the others? not to me.. but others..
please reflect back..
I don't meant to argue or what, but maybe that's your way to handle things.. i could say.. we as a friend.. i found that it's a waste to end up this way.. well.. that's all i guess.. i got no resent for what's going to be next, since I've apologized for broken promise I've made..
Take care..
Pal.

Perfect

Maybe perfect a word that easy to be spell but..
I don't find a way to met this requirement of words when it came to certain things..
Things I've look at.. I've think of..
a flash back of a scene, an act..
that's totally a sickness..
A progress of learning and growing..
perhaps, i shall look for not perfect condition..
maybe you're right, perfect seems to be nice; but it's not safe to be in.
it came again and again and no way to escape from it before you face it..
came on.. I'm getting sick with it..
it's been so long and yet so fucking clear right now..
someone.. please.. give me a point.. a guide.. to be plot at..
i got no direction at all when i face those fucking stuff..
sick of me! arghhh!

Life in United State of America

well.. Uni had started for 2 weeks.. and yea.. that's pretty fun..
the load of assignments are great..
even tho it's a lot..
but i made me felt in different way as i had previously..
I could say this is great.. i learn it indirectly and understand how things work..
we don't have to go through all those stupid lesson only start the assignments..
but do it and think about it.. and then just attend the class.. wonderful i shall say.
everyday the assignments not to say easy.. but you will enjoy with it..
you won't suffocate with assignments..
well sometimes i felt fed up of it.. haha..
everyone do have this kind of feeling i shall say
well.. another part of my life here should say better than previously..
i slept late as usual.. but
attending those classes
after class will be gym next door
and after that will be going home and cook for dinner..
i am not a good cook.. but during this duration will polish it..
the weather is getting colder day by day..
that's what i expected..
i do drink at here as well but only beer.. and that's my favorite beer to be drank during chinese new year! BUDWISER!
it's pretty cheap..
30 cans cost you less that 25 bucks..
when i knew about the price i just went crazy.. seriously!
back in malaysia it cost me RM9/can,
that's ridiculous!
well.. everything here considered cheap if you earn the money here..
if you convert it back to Malaysia, that would probably cost you a boom!
well.. as this goes.. i think i should get a part time job during weekend..
as i consider is about my studies.. if goes smooth..
get some pocket money for myself and feed myself..
right here.. anytime i mean night.. you could hear all the sirens around..
back and just! i heard of the breaking glass.. anywhere here late at this hour would not be safe..
anywhere it's the same..
this here are pretty cute and funny
i still unable to suit the way that they move and the direction.. ppl always pull me back when i wanted to cross the street
i was looking at the wrong direction.. *what a shame*
yeap.. even tho i came here and the same thing still haunted me..
i believe no matter where you go..
how wonder that place is..
you are you..
nothing could change..
scars follows you around..
i felt good when piglet sent me a pic of wild boar.. i was.. happy..
finally someone remember me..
haha.. attention seeker!*sick of me*
well.. as things goes on.. i am looking forward for a better changes..
i never regret for making this decision to came over state..
maybe the path I've chosen since the very beginning..
it had decided where i should be and what i should with me..
previously, I've lost my direction.. thanks for the hand that brought me up..*sounds like I'm not independent enough*
the more i struggle, the greater pain i get..
but if i didn't struggle, i would feel better..
maybe set the goal and follow the flow would be the best as I've experienced.
frankly... i do miss something and several people right now..
the thing i miss is bak kut teh and oyster mee sua..
and several people is to remain anonymous.. =P
Friends in Malaysia..
Good Luck and Take Care..
as soon as I'm free, I will update this blog..
auf wiederhoeren!

Here is America...

Finally i get myself connected in my friend's apartment and now take the time to post some updates of mine after long long time didn't update any of them..

Alright.. My Flight Duration are more than 24 hours include waiting and that's horrible...
while in Changi airport i was sleeping and the stupid officers came and woke me up.. as u guys know.. i hate to be disturb when i'm in that condition...

after hours and hours of flight.. finally i reach america... well... it's just damn bloody dry till my nose bleed.. not much.. and cracked lips.. day by day.. things getting well.. and yea..
went to shopping and get addicted with it when my house mate and my friends... well.. nothing much to shop then..

Catherine , Me ,CoCo
Cute Cloack

psp!!!!
My Housemate..

And almost everynight.. we have tea and etc... well... that's all for today.. thanks.. =P

Farewell Party

Well, I appreciate that all my friends that came across.. whether newly met or met long time ago.. as well as lecturers and mates,
kindly thanks for Business partners, Viosclub C-one members, Kdu College peeps and lecturers, friends around from different college and as well as hometown friends,
i am very sorry if i could spend time with you guys..
well.. i do enjoy the moments..
14 years old friendship is still there.. i would remember it
cars modders that knew each other thru online ,TT and gaming.
friends that knew from the club.. a cute little girl
friends from high school(keat hwa and Kolej Genting Highlands)
friends from other college..
lecturers( Fei Sang! DON siu!! haha!)
Seniors of hotel school
law students from kdu
business student from kdu..
as well as my teachers of crystals from heaven's gift! Alice & jackie and Coco! thanks for the supporting crystals for me.. i really appreciate it..
thanks for leaving a great memories before i leave..
it's kind of unforgettable memories and will carry it every single day when i'm still breathing!

the fire too slow la!!!
eh!
like that ma! wait us pose 1st!
thanks! for the cake!
Jamie! why you?!

Syok! no more cream!
Actually, I Don't Want To Cover It!
Heart Attackers.. Till Late =)
Another Pose =)
well... will upload more pic when i recieve it.. =) more updates will be done =)

blur

Waking up from my dream after more than 10 hours sleep..
Gave me headache..
well.. time get shorter.. 1 week more.. what can i do during this particular 1 week?
planning for my farewell party, i hope it could be done.. hmm...
but.. still.. there is something unable to be done..
i guess i should leave it there and let it be..

That's It?

After severals conversations, being focus is very important in advance to get things done.. and this is commonly knew by everyone.. but at the same time, the side effects of being focus or over into it.. might lead to some side effects unless both are doing the same thing.. what if 1 of the party is doing the thing only?

As time goes.. u have to focus at both side and make u more tired.. realizing that if a person focus in 1 thing at 1 time.. that person would have more time to go around and work around.. yea.. sounds like there's no life.. but there is.. when certain limits had been reached.. then that's the ideal time..

I've experienced one.. i'm not the main character but now i am the main character.. the burden is not big.. but the surroundings would be a problem and the way should handle it shouldn't followed by the emotional decisions..

=)

okay.. last day of the month.. and a day my buddy came for party at mos.. a nice place but just bad to smokers as for me.. can't smoke at all.. haiz.. nvm.. it's pretty fun there.. i mean.. yea.. not that pack.. it's pretty fun when get along with friends that been long time didn't get along with.. actually was sick to get off from bed but since i woke up and it's still early so i decided to go and have a fun.. the crowd and the DJ.. not bad overall.. acceptable.. well.. it's a another day again.. plans had been stack up and have to get it done by today.. =)

days at hometown...

Living without these day's technology and media it's like putting myself in an empty room..
thanks to the stupid theft that stolen the whole residence area's phone cables.. idiots!
thanks to my itchy hand that made me bought enough of movies to save me from the it.. =)
my days became upside down as day became night and night became day and i'm still awake during day when i was suppose to sleep just like vampire..
was suffering for stomachache and made me nag here and there.. thanks to the supplement that made me save money from visiting the doctor and commit to the hospital for 1 night to do those stupid check ups that requested from my mum.. thanks for that doesn't happened at all..
times kept on running.. 1 month seems to be short for me to get my things done.. yet it's possible..
just worry of sessions of training that left behind..
took a ride of hihg speed around my hometown made me think back of all the memories.. and yea.. it's fun cause it's around 12.. there is no cars running on the streets.. i mean not much.. a few ants as i could say.. 140 at a curve is way of easy to be done.. but not during the day time, cause drivers are at speed of 40.. fuck'em
i dunno why my fucking smooth face popped up with those ugly pimple that irritate me.. damn it.. nvm.. it's almost gone btw.. hope so..
guess i have to de-mod my ride asap becoz mum gonna drive it.. doesn't want it to make her so cool by having my ride.. =P
it's 12 noon.. my sister is staring at my cause i'm on her desk and she just came to work.. another lazy bump.. see ya..

........

Time Change Things Overnight..
Nothing Is Impossible For Everything..
It Seems To Be Unreachable For Certain Things..
1 More Month.. I will leave..
footsteps that left behind are invisible..
only with memories left unclear..

Time is moving forward
so do I, looking forward..
wouldn't know whether it's correct or no for what had done and left undone..
hitting bars and pushing myself to the limits is better for me to get it done..
should get back what had been with me and never leave me for all the while..
size doesn't shows you are strong..
but a thinking of you showed you're strong..

Got To Get it off.. and will see what's next..

Wonderful Day

Woke Up at 11am and don't want to get off the sofa (right! i'm sleeping on the sofa instead of my own room until i achieve with some result). kinda surprise my sister didn't went to work.. and yea.. prepared my nutrition breakfast for me.. and my busy mum..(it's late.. but i just woke up.. consider as my breakfast oso la! =P) and continue with Carbo foods which most of malaysian and asian unable to live without.. rice... =)

went to rush for my medical check up which required by the Uni and had to take 2 injection for a day.. damn it!! since i've forgotten to bought her the rojak kuah.. and when she came back, she is so busy to chit chat.. so this trip.. it's a must to get.. haha.. tam ciak mia ginna.. then again.. go here and there.. rush here and there.. lazy to take those carbo foods that made me so sick of it.. and took the nutrition breakfast as my dinner..

was plan to go to get the information of flight ticket to get to state, since this is the 1st time for me.. kinda excited with i know the time is very near for me to go back to the country i was born in.. AMERICA!!! too bad.. i was late.. still manage to met up with Max, 1 of my friend in the inti international college with his girl friend. great to know that he is planning to study at new york.. and that's gonna be great! after a few hours of conversation at coffee bean and we were forced to leave and i started my journey at 1 am plus back to kl.. with the speed of 100kmh and watch movie at the same time.. very nice.. fantastic.. until i met the road block at somewhere around taiping and i was question by the inspector, Lu tengok Wayang? Lu ini Ori mia player? as i replied.. of coz.. ori.. mana ada tengok wayang.. bahaya lo.. haha!! stupid! i mean he!

drive and drive and drive.. finally reached kl around 5am plus? manage to do play games to kill ma time and wait for the time.. finally it's 7.30am.. went to fetch fei por and small little chili and piglet.. had dim sum around my housing area shop houses.. which surprisingly met up with ubivios, a member of tvcm and team yakuza..

by not wasting time.. i wallap up to the mount.. but not to the max.. due to new tyre..( paria mia tyre.. stock rim.. not doing the great job as PP2, nvm.. since i'm leaving) manyak gatai mia me.. kena screw up and down.. had a drink at starbucks since it's so so early..


venti it's mine! ain't cafe latte, but black tea latte!! see the box behind those cups? it's the supplement for smokers! cigarettes!
yea! not fun.. kena perli all the way.. haiz.. kena bully =(
manage to take a walk at the park and gardens and came out with a few pose.. haha..






and fei por wanted to play the machine game and finally I get bullied by a small kids.. i think he is only 7 years old =( knn!


again.. went to starbucks.. and i fell asleep there for awhile.. terrible.. so nice to sleep.. it reminded me the day i was studying at kolej genting highlands during my high school, which now known as Sekolah Menengah Swasta Saleha Genting Highlands and International boarding school.. haiz.. miss all those old peeps.. and buddy!
after dinner wallap back pj and sent all of the leng luis home and took at bath and again.. rush to my friends farewell party.. JULIA! A classmate who sit in a same row as mine and the sleepers row..( dun whack me pls julia! i knew u slept in the class when i did that too!) drank a few glasses of beers.. and cabut to jln ipoh for dim sum again! nice for that.. and finally i am here writing this blog when i get home.. and it's 3.40am.. i think this is the 1st time i did so many things that is so tiring without taking a long sleep..i guess i know this might be the last time for me and my friends(as in a few) to go out together and hang around and enjoy the time together as a memories that i would like to thanks and the footstep that left behind in the memories.. time is too short to plan out for anything.. not knowing when is the next time i would step back here when i back there.. a decision to make that will affect my entire life.. i took it.. it goes according the plan.. thanks for everything pals.. KDU peeps,Kgh peeps,Inti Peeps, and all the friends around.. thanks for everything.. perhaps.. a grand one will be the last one.. Life Is Good! Live It! long journey drive is tiring? no! why no?! becoz you dunno how to enjoy it! so you will feel tired la.. doink! nitez..

Fuck IT!

Education is for you to work? Or for your knowledge?
If an Education is for you to work, i shall say your education will bring u until the age of 55.. other than that?
if an Education is a key for you to find your money.. how much you can earn from your education?
Are you a slave to a company?
or a slave for your own company?
you work so hard for?
you be a top student.. will you be top if you work in the community?
will you get your ideal pay?
why still studying in a course that everyone is in?
and why still do the same thing that everyone is doing?
work load = money that the company pay you
= they pay you more and you have to work more?
do anything in this world that you only have to work hard for a few years and after that you are free for the rest of your life?
if this do appear but why humans are not doing it?
you work so hard is to get a better life..
if you are a doctor and you got a lot of property..
and all u get from the bank loan for 80% of loan..
are you still work as a doctor?
to me.. you are working in a bank.. why?
because u work so hard to earn money back and pay to the bank.. am i right?

Stop telling you are busy.. that is bullshit.. how much you are making?
if you are not making millions.. don't tell me you are busy! fuck it!
as a son need to make appointment for you to accompany me to america! fuck you la!
it's not like you don't know when i depart.. it's not like you don't know.. and came and ask me when?!
fuck it! thank you for giving me money.. thank you for giving me what i want.. but you are still far a way to be a good parents.. because you gave me no time of your's! so.. just fuck it off! i will do things on my own.. you don't have to accompany me to anywhere.. just sit in your office with your staff and do your paper work.. don't have to waste time..
what a fucked up family!

...

this had been going on and time is getting lesser and lesser.. to get things done fast.. i have to be fast.. haiz... certain things seems to be a screwed up i guess.. i shall transfer my business ownership to my sister, who don't know how to appreciate the business.. medical checkups is in the progress.. guess i have to go to embassy asap as i'm done half of it...

again.. thinking back of all the things that have to left behind.. in front it's totally blind and tough challenges.. peoples said... with challenges only make you grow.. as time goes as challenges came by.. face it.. but not quit! i hope it's great challenges then..

the silence of nights reminded me tons of tragedy..
the noisiness of days put me in tense..
laughter of peoples made me smile,
the tears of peoples made me down..
life is hard?
life is good?

well well well.. i hope my next weekend plan will goes smooth.. so that's the last time i could be out there and have fun with peoples around me.. good to say good.. i dunno when it came.. what would it be.. *sigh*

half way..

Things just done half way.. yea.. half! way! great.. to achieve that had to be achieve it's easy.. just peoples tend to do the wrong things even they know the right things..* itchy backside*
being a good boy.. woke up at 7.30 for bfast.. that's pretty sucks and gay for me to do so.. and yea.. again.. days goes by.. having lunch.. doing some home work and laze around.. doing cock.. and went for classes of discussion.. hmm.. i felt that without having crabs daily.. it's suffering like hell..
came on... guys.. let's kick the day off with DIM SUM!!! CALL ME!! or SMS ME!! DIM SUM DIM SUM!! CRAB CRAB!!!

Day With Hopes

Woke up Kinda early after the convention with performance of JJ Lin, Anuar Zain*hope i spell it correctly and Era Dancer* yea.. started driving from morning of 10 till the evening of 7 to reach kl and went straight for the event till 10 plus and supper till 12 plus.. clean up and do my work as what i should be doing.. cool yea..

things starts when a sms from my friend reached me and told me something that really made me happy even better than having sex! i mean seriously.. a kind of satisfaction of hope is moving around.. of course there's always troubles occurs.. and went to had my lunch alone.. but unexpectedly my lecturers are there and sitting next to me.. haha.. great.. fetched 1 of my lecturer to dhl and the staff there is hor sang's cousin sister.. *Small World*.

went to fetch my primary schoolmates and went to take a look around with his friend.. and i could see his friends eye turn into something when i told him of that.. wow.. my words became magic now.. haha.. *perasan only la me* after fetching them home..
went to peter.. stall under trees to hang around.. and went college to get stuff and have a chat..

During my drive while watching some old movies.. mum called and told me that i was accepted by the uni that i've applied to and should have get things done right now.. after hang up the call.. i became a little bit of sad.. i dunno why.. i gonna miss so many things around me.. no matter what it is.. family, friends, cars, bed and enemy.. as well as friends that always accompany me to eat when i'm hungry.. * i guess you know who you are.. and thanks for that! * i gonna miss those days travel around and drive around at the streets during midnights no matter alone or with friends.. but in another hand of mine.. i got to make things work right now.. hold it tight and do it right.. since i have to do things on my own.. well.. enough for me being childish and it's time to grow right now.. not much time to waste.. it's time to suffer!!

well.. not much i shall say but i remembered little chili complaining that i spoiled something.. well i guess i should post it up!! =P since i spoiled it.. and that's what i've been doing and don't have the chance to do during past few months.. * the tounge's post!! haha!! * fine then.. haiz.. gonna miss those days and kept it deep in my memories and move on with days.. =)

check this out!!!

Weekends

Came back from kl during friday after the slept of mine.. sorry for ffk joey and miss wong.. =X i overslept.. i know sorry no cure * but really sorry of that incident * so my journey start from 3 and yea.. should start at 1 and i reach there by 2 to fetch the little chilli and went to have my brunch since i've start putting all those S.H.I.T.S out since i woke up and felt uneasy.. amazingly i just finished half of the rendang chicken nasi lemak.. well.. she was so so so down and she saw the jam.. haha.. and she is so worried that will she manage to reach there on time? it was an expected timing for me.. since i've travel up and down.. and yea.. no harm.. she is hot tempered girl and i'm not a good temper person as well.. *very*


she started to get so excited and ask me to chase over a car.. and she was abit hyper and after that down again.. too bad.. when reach the desition she seems to be so energertic.. haha.. well.. i was too tired when i reach home and fell asleep after playing games at my PDA and unexpectedly woke up at 10pm.. i tot it was 10am at the morning and out there is so damn bloody dark.. great.. that's when i started to hunt ppl for supper.. and finally found 1.. able to say it's a yao yi hei friend as being a friend.. and went to have a supper and was going around.. planned to sleep after reach home but.. still unable to and continue with the drama that i've haven't finish watching since weeks back when i bought it.. as time goes by and the day had came and the night had left.. well.. my parents tot i was asleep on the sofa but a shocked for them i was still laughing and laughing.. great~!~


busy mum and gone to work and i have to find my own breakfast and yet the same person that i pulled out and wanted to have a hokkien noodle.. *it's known as prawn noodle in around kl area* too bad.. it's close and went for bak kut teh for breakfast with lai si har and fried fish.. wow.. fattening breakfast.. of coz combination of tea * as what ppl said that it will clean/burn off fats * and yea..
now at the garage my car is having fun around with the others sexy ladies around *cars* gonna get a new stock for my ride.. shall wait for it then..

too late

A night i've started to enjoy since 6 month of rest.. no doubt.. i still stay the same.. keeping something deep inside.. i know it's stupid to keep it right bottom of my heart.. and i think she had forget about my exist.. just i'm stupid to waiting right here.. i wanted to sound it out loud when it reach the half bottle.. but it seems to be so hard.. and i manage to control myself being stupid again.. i knew that.. it's so obviously stated there.. no point.. i guess... from this and tonight.. i know where should i be going to.. with a hopeless hope.. i will no look at it.. maybe.. but trying.. after resting for 6 months.. i'm still having that feelings.. it's so strong.. i can't lie to myself.. i just felt i'm just stupid.. that's all.. whatever i had tried.. i tried.. it's seems to be so late.. but nevermind.. even tho it's late there.. i shall blame myself but not the others.. maybe.. move on.. till fate.. it's bullshit for me to talk about this.. it's useless and hopeless at all.. the reality it's isn't so.. so.. i'm just telling lies to myself.. i hope.. i'm telling the truth to myself.. even i made myself so busying to forget things.. but it seems to remain there.. too bad.. my fault.. sorry..

if u read this blog.. this is the clip that i wanted to address to you since long time ago.. take care..

Sunny Day~

Sunny Day Of Thursday.. it's early for me to woke up at 7.30 and rolling on my tiny bed.. till my stomach is starting to play drums and guitar.. so i woke up and stare at my laptop and looking around my messy room after a war of exam that just passed yesterday.. should have feel relieve and enjoy.. but it doesn't to me.. cause i have to start doing things that i should be doing as for my own assignment by myself.. this assignment should be a very easy but doesn't seems to be when there is always a NO.. haha..

well.. i'm not only meeting 1 person a day.. so.. probably.. a week if i'm really in a bad luck.. all will say no.. but there is so many days and years.. no doubt.. 20% of it say yes.. and life would be better.. as in another way round.. things doesn't seems to be good for this few days.. and when i think about going to start my training during this early july at ritz carlton really a task and i should be prepared for the industrial training.. it's not working.. but should have take it as my working life and decide where should i be in the later part.. while waiting for my result.. as my expectation.. i knew what would it be.. so i will not put high hope in it..

planned to go somewhere.. perhaps.. i should be going.. if there is an opportunity for me to do so.. well.. if i've been going to everywhere how am i going to do it? but if i travel around.. maybe.. i will be seeing peoples.. and it might be some miracles there.. * think too much * haha.. well well.. i shall keep my room tidy.. it's been a week i didn't keep it tidy since the war is almost begins..

video clip of the day =)

Finals!

Guten Tag.. Willkommen, zu gelesen mein Blog weider. it's a rainy day.. well.. should have prepare for exams but unfortunately been bared.. too bad.. blame myself.. haha.. well.. i have no resent for that.. because of my learning attitude.. well.. there will me 4 subjects to go.. english, finance, beverage and food costing.. seems to be easy.. but it's actually not at all.. and it's my final semester and seems to be a screwed up that i've done it myself.. great!

well.. doing things in a last minutes it's my ideal pick because i just will read thru by not memorizing it.. because i really hate doing that stuff.. and it's not understanding.. but study blindly.. it's not a right choice as well.. i do drink till i'm tipsy during previous semester and was because it seems to be a disappointment for me but not to now with this kind of situation.. and thank god it's only 2 days of 2 papers per day.. and it seems to be very fast.. and i'm free after that.. great.. i will spend my time with shoppings and doing things around..*legal of coz* having fun like what i've stopped for months! chill around like what i should be doing and what i'm doing previously..

yet something still bothering me.. i have to gave up in advance to get it.. perhaps.. i made a right choice i guess.. but how to gave up it's still another problem for me.. i shall figure it out when i'm done with my finals.. and shall look and hunt for officers to get it done.. and before i depart.. i shall be no problems at all.. and i can leave peacefully.. and forget about everything.. it's time for me to handle my own things and do things with my own.. to a place that is totally different from what i've used to.. to find things that i've been missing for my pass 20 years.. perhaps.. i could find 1.. haha.. hope so..
well.. i have to get back to those slides and papers.. before i'm lack of time to squeeze everything inside my brain in within a few hours time.. great thing is.. i have no pen and liquid and as well.. no pencil case for me.. damn.. am i a student? yea.. but a student only bring brains but nothing to college..
hope i could pass those 4 subjects.. pray for me.. thanks for ya..
muacks~~~

Exhausted

After that blog that i've wrote.. i stayed awake and went for breakfast with 2 leng lui.. haha.. nice right? i wanted to eat dim sum and they wanted to eat mcd breakfast.. fine.. head to central point mcd.. and then.. chat for awhile and go ahead to do my stuff.. while in the college.. we are half of studying but seems to be more in talking.. and when i had my lunch.. suddenly!.... my head so so so so heavy.. >.<" and i almost fell asleep. but i did sleep at the cafeteria..

The best part of it is while i'm sleeping.. my leg still shaking.. i just realize that until 1 of the leng lui's friend asked her whether i am fine or no.. haha.. sleep and awake.. sleep and awake.. sad hiong.. i canceled my training because i know i'm not in the good condition to go for it.. since i'm tired and exhausted.. and this is the time that i still stay awake.. haha.. pushing all those weights and mills running will only make me faint.. well.. went out with friend for dinner and wanted to shop.. but seems to be bored and went to play games.. but seems to be sucks as well cause i lost 3 out of 4.. damn it! noobie me!

my friend is on the heavy bet for tonite.. i do hope him to win.. haha.. so i can get free meals.. nice nice.. well.. betting is not the right way.. as well as involving in betting.. but this is the demand and we shouldn't supply because we are killing them indirectly.. too bad.. fast money.. everyone wants it.. haha.. so sad... so bad.. not my cup of coffee..

Humans.. as i said.. i got no comment.. Life Goes On.. See ya.. Take Care~
here is another 1 clip that i love...

When I stared at my desk.. i see whisky, cognac, wine and Beer .in my cupboard spirits as well as on dinning table of my kitchen and fridge.. alcohols.. a combination of mood with it will only give you 2 effect.. either you happy or sad... from alcohols i see the happy and sad.. each cocktails in the menu at the bars.. it came with every single story and carried a mood of mine behind those drinks..

Grave Yard.. when i'm lost..
Long Island.. when i'm with previous half of mine.
Poisons.. when i fed up of things.
Bloody Mary.. when i'm free..
tequila sunrise.. when i'm happy
blowjob.. when i'm enjoying
and etc.. too much..

I've Stop Drinking For Months i guess expect from wine tasting in the class.. I don't know why i stop it.. mostly peoples around me know i like alcoholic beverage alot.. but today.. it just seems nothing to me.. thanks for my mum that bought me royal salute for my 21st birthday since that royal salute with age of 21.. and that's the alcohol i finished half bottle during some sad case had happened.. nvm.. life goes on..

shall say after that day.. i barely keep in touch with those drinks.. it's kind of phobia when i finished half bottle of royal salute.. that feeling is so wrong.. i don't want it anymore.. but after months.. i think no matter how hard i tried.. someone i will still open it and smell it.. it's nice.. maybe.. it's too much for me the finish it.. guess.. shall leave there and let it spoil..

Friends.. I was slotted in the middle of war *i shall say* all are friends.. but why this? Talk something "good" being a person with the joke that doesn't make sense? is that going to be your life style? thanks for you doing that i shall say.. because only people like you will find the way.. the way of? nothing.. XD.. stop saying how good you are and how bad we are.. stop saying that this is how and that is how.. but do you know that when you say this is how and that is how.. there is another this is how and another that is how?? *i hope i don't confuse you guys* if you think you are so clever and go great.. you are not here! as i said.. "You Don't Have The Rights To Judge A Person Because You Don't Even Know What You Up To.. If You Are Able To Judge A Person.. You Are God".. why? "Because Your Future For Sure Will Be Brilliant!!.. Because You Are Able To Judge The Others And What They Will Do For You.. So.. You Are The Most Successful Person".. Great?!

I've trained and pushed my upper body and it's damn bloody pain right now.. yeah.. i like this kind of pain.. i've lost it for quite sometime and it's time to get these pain back.. yeap.. it's not as worst as the 1st time.. and this is not the second time.. it's a punishment.. that's pretty great to me.. it's developing and it's not fast.. and takes time.. it's time to say hi to 1 of my smallest pants.. and shirts.. haha.. well.. my mouth tend to take more foods and my stomach get hungry easily right now.. i hope they will stop demanding for foods..

nitez

i was awake from the day before yesterday till yesterday * hope didn't confuse you* and went to college for breakfast with 2 leng luiz..and 1 leng lui went off and another 2 leng lui came... *in the picture is fei mui and fei por* haha.. have a talk and waited for mr.hor aka mor sang for awhile and went to took some goods and went home for a rest.. with roughly hours till the training.. and yea.. it's damn bloody pain for my back muscles.. since i've been pushed hard to lift up in heavy weights and on the treadmills for roughly 30 minutes of walking + running.. and lazy to move around and stomach upset for awhile..

so i canceled my today's training and go on with a rest and then went for a meeting, which gave me lots of information again that couldn't make me to sleep.. well well well.. it's nice.. it's an umbrella for the body to get protections and preventions.. just too bad peoples being stubborn and didn't see this as important case and said it's totally useless for their health.. since they are healthy currently.. as i said we don't know what will happen next and this happened to 1 of my friend which i knew him for more than 14 years.. and previously he didn't know that he will get any financial problem and weeks ago he get that and i question him.. the same thing.. previously you didn't have any financial problem.. but now just a short period and you're facing it.. predictable?? no right? *i'm trying to say that certain things is totally out of control*

i do question him.. the same thing.. now you're healthy.. will you predict you health status in the next minutes? and he knew that everything is so unpredictable.. but some are predictable.. so.. think wise.. make a right choice.. be a wise person.. haha.. *i'm not =P *
everyday before i sleep and when i woke up.. i will always say to myself.. there is NOTHING that cannot be done, only things that you DON'T want it to be done.. Another 1 will be.. DON'T say it's hard! if you WANT it.. JUST DO IT..

in this world is very fair.. just the mind of a person and individual is playing the game of their life.. if you think in a negative way.. you life will always in a negative way.. being realistic? you have to do this in advance to get this? pls.. you are wrong! just be yourself! do a thing that you will feel better but not with the benefits of your's.. if you're doing something you don't like and u kept doing it and from ur words u said u felt better after that.. you are just lying.. nobody will bother you! just you yourself..as it goes... if you don't like it.. change your attitude.. if you don't want to change your attitude.. don't complain of anything..

Even this is an old clip and songs.. but i still like it..

blur..

i was busy yesterday running up and down.. sorry that i forget her rojak sauces.. and i find a substitution for her.. and yea.. driving in a slow pace back to kl that took me 1 hour plus more than previously.. thanks for the gift of PDA for my tool kits for the slots of my needs..
so today i've woke up damn bloody late which i used to woke up at this hour when i'm very free.. but i'm not free as usual.. being lazy.. haha.. finals is around the corner and i guess it's time for me to start to study in this week.. yet i will be still attending a few courses for my personal use.. and as usually be a bit more hardworking.. i went to workout for 2 hours.. by running on the treadmills to burn off my flabby tummy's fats.. and i drop by a crystal shop which i wanted to get the sunstone which is i'm recently slightly out of budget.. haiz.. i hope that will belong to me but if it's not.. it's still fine.. so then.. i bought a bread from the bread shop next door and a bottle of green tea and go to subang to find that small little chili.. * i hope she don't know about this* and yea. wanted to go to have a alor star's taste fried rice and she said.. yor.. close liao la.. then nvm.. next mamak stall.. and that pataya fried rice is so damn bloody big in portion.. nvm.. manage to finish half.. i'm happy actually.. haha.. i oso dunno what i'm talking.. nothing much for today.. maybe.. tomorrow.. i guess.. i'm exhausted again.. nitez..

Learning~

Today, I woke up kinda late, and i called 1 of my personal tutor since i'm back here and doing nothing. and she get so so surprise when i called her.. and we met up around 6.30 at her house.. and we began to chat.. her little daughter grew up so fast.. it was just like yesterday when i tried to think back.. from a cute little girl became a girl which looked a like her pretty mother.. haha..
and we kept on talking and when she know i'm going for industrial training at ritz carlton and she said that's a nice hotel * but work inside there i can get the feelings of suffering but nevermind, just take it as a challenge of myself* well we chat for kind of awhile and we came to some financial issue and she involved in some sort of investment, but i found that's great *even we are in different line* and she is giving herself a time frame, at the same time i will be approaching to her for it..
after that i went to find another a friend of my mum's friend and we do chat for awhile and he do told me alot of things that is useful for me.. yeah.. it's a day of disappointment and it's a day for my learning as well, well.. another different line of profession that we are doing, and yeah.. he is a very successful person as i could see his achievement is kind of amazing..well.. what i've seen how's those stepping step of him. both i made an analysis and something that i know..
it's going to be a very great economic impact for this year, with no doubt.. there will be a lot of company bankrupt or facing a great financial problem if this continue and does happened during august or sept. well.. i can't see the future but could roughly predict it.. thanks to Malaysia came out with this decision..
tomorrow going to be my rest day, after running up and down.. no matter how much time that i have, it's too short for me.. i shall kept doing this i guess, if i didn't do so.. i will not having enough time to build it.. all i have is time to build it and spread it.. too bad.. to bring out with this disappointment.
When my friend told me about she is considering of me and don't know whether she can or no, and i would like to take this opportunity to talk about this to you, she said you able to help me up, fight with me,a good girl.. but the problem is i just wanted to do this on my own, i can't see what's in front there.. just not to waste your time, and our time.. it's better off for us to be friend, i do appreciate friend more than being a couple. it's not a very suitable time for me to have this because i really need to focus in the things that i'm doing.. i'm being selfish for my future, and treat you as my friend.. because anything things can happen and so do shits does happen.. i do not wish to commit in any thing right now but the things i've been doing for all this while, do not wish it's just stop.. but continue.. thanks for it..

Tired Journey

From early in the morning i was rushing for something and manage to grab my breakfast from bread story.. and continue to fetch a little cute demons to genting.. and becoz of my poor punctuality, she waited me for 1 hour.. *dun angry k?* and then i rushed up to the hill and 1 of the corner reminded me of few years back, which nearly took off my life while the tyre failed to grip on the surface of the road due to over heated and the tyre it's about to off.. so i have to drive a the lower gear to make my engine do the work of holding my car in the condition that i preferred..
we arrived at the mid of the mount and i took my meal there, a very cute lady came towards the table.. probably promoting the products.. haha, actually making some money for meals, i saw cat eye which i've been looking for long time ago.. and it does attracted me, i didn't bought it because when i hold on it, i can't get any feelings out from the crystal and the quality of it is just perfect just like the kuncyte * i hope i didn't spell it wrongly* which will cost around 7k and that is just selling as my assumption of 100bucks? okay u may say i look for expensive crystal to buy.. to be frank.. if u see that u seriously know when u keep in touch more to crystal and with a minor of knowledge of it..* i'm just a beginner that still learning of it* and there was a drink that served to the table which is enzyme, taste like wine but alcohol free.. i dunno what's about.. and yea.. after the meal.. again.. i whack my car up the hill again..
reaching there and i headed to starbucks to get my 1 of my fav drinks.. latte~ i ordered the chai latte.. i hope i'm rite.. it's cinnamon.. it's taste a lil ewww when the first few sips.. but after that.. i just taste great!
after the drinks will waiting for my friend to bring my stuff to me.. i had a window shopping and my hand became itchy and i accidentally bought something.. haha!! and join a few kids for acarde.. *have to be childish, i mean sometime* while playing and waiting.. finally my friend are ready.. good! while having a another window shopping i was looking around for my training tee.. too bad.. out of my ideal size, that's the time i'm waiting for another friend of mine to finish her meal.. so again.. walk up and down.. and up and down.. looking for all the stuff that selling at the kiosk.. and it looks attractive.. but don't really need it.. finally.. she is done and we went back to kl.. while packing she is so so so tired.. haiz.. kesian.. and a very slow motion me.. do my stuff and take my bath.. luckily she din fell asleep.. haha.. i headed to 1 of the coffee shop at subang jaya and had my dinner there.. and she told me.. "everytime i ate this and this i confirm go to toilet when i reach home.. dunno why?"i also unable to answer because everytime i had the same thing nothing happened to me, other than full =P.. and a very busy body her.. saw a police car chasing after someone and she asked me to U-turn and look.. why so many ppl la and so on and so forth.. then i turned to ac there and she turned to so so DOWN! haha!! because of the traffic there is kind of slow.. and finally drop her off..
here is my journey heading to island, after hours of drive in the heavy traffic and alone*which i've used to it and i found that there are tons of cars moving so damn bloody slow.. and okay.. save fuel.. after hours of driving finally i've reach.. and my god.. stuck again.. fine.. and it took me nearly 30 min to arrive the destination.. and i manage to pass the stuff to my friend and she was so bloody sleepy.. and i do told her alot of things and i will do my homework and the work of figuring it out.. and she do offer me a stay at her house since there is an empty room which is available.. *thanks for that, don't get wrong.. she is just like an elder sister of mine and just friend!!!*, i can't because expensive goods in my ride that's not belongs to me.. i appreciate that offer.. finally i start another journey and took me hours again to reach.. and finally i'm able to get myself online and write this blog.. it's dawn right now.. i guess i still have to continue with something before i'm able to sleep... kay guys.. will update more tomorrow.. take care~

Tired..

Today i chatted with a girl.. and she seems to be jealous when i remember of the another girl's name and she tried to let me see the different.. nvm.. i will use her name next.. *playing around with her* and then.. when i became very boring i will talk whatever things that i wanted to and it seems that she likes it *i dunno whether it's true or no..* but yeah.. that's from what I've learn from all the mistakes, maybe what had happened to me.. or when i see things and what is going around me.. i will remember it.. i'm good in remember things that is not related to studies.. and i always forget whatever i've studied unless i look and read it for once or twice.. while i'm off to my so called breakfast+lunch+tea time i think shall give it a name, Bluntea (Breakfast LUNch TEA time) haha.. *okay.. i know.. nonsense*, After my meal i started to think what i should do for today.. and finally i recalled that i left 20 over session and i have to get it done in this month before i start to be busy for the next month. so i've made appointment for 7pm and i went there kinda early, 6.30pm i've reached..
While killing my time.. i went to have a chit chat with a friend *not very close* and have a small conversation.. end up I'm late *okay, i know i sembang kuat* when i step in the fitness center i saw my coach heading to the weight liffting area.. and i rush in the changing room for a quick change.. great.. superman wannabe.. and i start my workout on the treadmills which almost cut my breath off and i was shocked that.. my stamina dropped like hell.. sigh! but after that start continue with pumping up my back muscle.. and i do complain about my muscle too small * fats* and with a very good replied.. u smoke so much.. how la go energy to run on the treadmills to burn of ur fats and with enough energy to continue with workouts? okay.. i wan big hand big chest and big back.. again.. u stop smoking and build your stamina sure can one.. >.<" i start feeling not well.. and i continue running *actually walking in a fast pace* so ya.. then he said.. today extra 1 session.. i was like ok la.. then i waited for 1 session to pass due to his appointment.. between that waiting i was cycling and cycling until almost the time.. and i get pushed to pump this and that until i'm half dead.. After 3 hours of work outs.. finally.. rushed to ss2 misai to eat.. haha.. with a secret partner *it's a guy, i'm not gay pls!* and then went to his house and we start doing our job... *again! we are not gay!* both of us looking for a stuff but dunno where it is.. and then we walk up and down.. look for it during the middle of the nights.. *romantic leh, but we are not gay!* and yea finally! we can't find it.. haha!! and i took a machine home.. and a few things as well.. now.. it's operating in my room.. looks cool.. because it is cool.. and finally.. i'm here.. still very hungry! but i have to sleep now.. my body is extremely aching.. tomorrow still going genting.. ^^

Wednesday

Rainy Evening, after yesterday's nutrition package that i've figured it out with my friend, i get my very 1st booking from my friends, she is willing to try it out.. since it's kind of fair for those who are with health conscious and i guess it's affordable item for teenagers.. not to say i'm the best, but the product is the best from what i've seen and know, yet.. i've tried to share this to more than 10 peoples, probably non of replies of they are willing to know more, seems it's kind of disappointments, but not to me.
I know it's a matter of time to let them see things, it's hard to educate those who are not willing to give themselves a chance to let themselves absorb knowledge. and yes, it's a matter of time as well.. when they are willing to know something.. they will.. it's no use to force, just to see whether they are able to convince themselves to use or to try or no.. from my knowledge, forcing get nothing, but deliver the message to a person is very important for me because i have to do it since i know it. not to say to bad, but it's kind of no fate i shall say.
A very good message been delivered from a financial planner to me and the others, "You save 10k in ur FD if let say they give you 5% p.a and u could see the money is alot, but prices of everything is raising year by year, a very good example is the petrol. and when u get back the money. there is an inflation and depreciation value of money as well.." i'm strongly agree with this.. because this is no the 1st day and the 1st time i know about this.. inflation occurred by our life style, economics and many other factors.. even the money you keep in your trusted bank can't even guarantee there will be no inflations or depreciation value of money..
to educate them.. how? are they willing to listen? humans tend not to do the right things even tho they know it's right. why? because of FEAR.. thanks to the false evidence made real or an emotional response to tangible and realistic dangers who is leading a person.. because they will not do those stuff which they fear of.. ^^ but some they are too brave.. what a wonderful world which full of jokers.. haha!!

Tuesday

Peoples.. words that i have to say and i know what you will reply..
i will just not say.. pointless.. no reason.. my fault.. say whatever you guys wanted to..
well.. I'm just do things with a reason.. so.. haha..
yea.. i've been thinking.. how? and how?
finally... i came out with a solution.. hehe.. for diet.. yet doesn't spoil anything yet healthy.. hehe
thanks for the assist and teachings.. i've learnt alot.. and alot more coming..
i'm happy because i gave someone an opportunity to talk about that..
and see things in the long run but not thru the direct figure.. figuring it out for quite sometime..
with a very normal mood.. i became excited.. i don't know why.. i get all the frozen arrows shoots, pails and pails of ice water.. yet.. i'm surviving.. with no regret.. and i'm proud of it.. but not ashame of it.. i don't see anything is wrong from it.. maybe point of view are totally different.. but i have to thank those who are having different point of view's peoples.. without them.. there are no challenges to improve myself and the others.. *seriously, i'm not insulting!*
rumors created by those who are too free.. and just to make themselves happy by talking and poking ppl's backside *haha* but they didn't look at themselves when they open their mouth...
To rumors creator! say la.. u kept on sitting there and keep on saying.. i hope u sit there and talk about people.. u will be millionaire by creating up stories and rumors..congratulation then..
but then can't be blame la.. if no rumors where the hell came up stories that who get hooked up with who which is so so so unreal.. haha..
i don't know when i started to be like this.. this is not me.. but i just like this situation that i never be in.. but.. it's kind of hard as well.. as i could see.. everything is becoming worst.. i'm trying to overcame it.. i hope to strengthen myself during this challenge.. no more sighz! tomorrow is always a hope and a chance.. forget about everything.. and keep on moving! ! !
i hope so.. and i want it so.. i'm trying now! with no delays!..

crapping.. lolz..

dull day.. i shall say.. hmm.. it's kind of happy and kinda down yet a busy day of mine.. well.. i'm happy because of i've get the best.. down because tomorrow gotta be a presentation for me.. haiz... busy being run up and down for stocks.. huh... i've tried it and it's just nice.. i mean.. yeah.. worth for that.. although some people dun like it.. what to do.. too bad.. haha.. i'm pretty sure some others are with the same thinking of mine.. sharing it with peoples who need it really great..
during my meals.. i heard words from mouth that delivered to my ears.. yea.. it sounds ridiculous.. when i reflect back.. yea.. it's actually fair.. humans with rights... it's all about commitment.. trust is another problem as well.. whether you want to stay or go away.. it's just a choice.. how to keep that good? i really don't know.. i'm also another failure in this.. haha.. too bad dude.. can't help anything.. but what i've said.. seriously.. if they think it's fine and u don't, we will see.. everything happened and with it's solutions.. whether you solve it now or later it's up to you.. you will be meeting the same problem if you didn't solve it.. whatever wants to came around it will.. certain things it's totally out of control.. bare with it.. or leave it.. i shall say.. well.. i'm just an outsiders.. i've met this before.. too bad.. i've screwed it.. i hope you don't.. i could see ups and downs everyday.. whether you're with it or no it's totally up to you.. do whatever you think it's right.. selfishness of a person is totally ugly with it really came.. too bad.. humans tend to be complicated and don't want to believe whatever it's right and been told.. sad case..

To Fill Up With?

While Waiting.. I've attached with it.. So, I shall see things for that.. seems unclear.. While Waiting.. I think that shouldn't be any problems.. I won't be home.. again.. i won't.. the home that i raise up in decades.. i shall leave.. stand up like no other's business.. i can't predict what will happen, what will be passing by.. what will be next.. in a sudden.. I reflected everything.. it felt like yesterday.. but it's so long ago.. yea.. i'm far off with something that had to be done.. before commitments approach and i'm attached with it.. i shall build it.. whether fast or slow.. i still have to.. peoples said it can't be done.. i said.. it can be done.. too bad.. i'm more stubborn than previously.. my point of view.. i have to bare with it.. even tho the percentage is so mild.. but logically i could.. peoples, i'm not saying you guys are wrong.. maybe the point of view of mine and you guys are different right now.. maybe i see things too simple.. but it's easier for me to put things in that way to prevent myself became cranky or being distracted.. i've thought of a new relationship.. but, that doesn't lead me to anywhere. yet.. it's kind of too early i shall say.. maybe.. when the base is strong enough.. i'm not trying to say anything.. perhaps.. i should and shall be left in this situation.. not committed to anything but something.. as well as not losing anything.. at least fair enough.. i've lost too much.. and that's enough i guess.. it's time to begin a new things that is worth to be done.. and working in the unexpected challenges in the community.. i guess i won't be wrong for this.. but this is what had been decided when i was committed with it..i think it's time for me to be very serious.. no more jokes and entertainment.. maybe.. this is the life style for me and to leave everything behind.. and also a pain killer for me.. it's better there is nothing for me than something.. for me to learn and fill up the empty brain of mine with something..