我只不過是盤底下的調味品~！

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as summer session 2 started..

2 classes.. seems to be easy.. but kinda hard..

but the kinda hard.. kind of easy??

complicated huh?? haha..

ya.. now the stress is up..

kinda of?? ya..

haha.. class class work..

happy la.. but stress la..

what can i do??

aih..!!

oh well!! i just want this shit to end like now! and (period) no more!

hahaha! ignore this.. headache..

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while doing my edu audit..

i see.. diu lor.. if i take this spring no class = jobless = my resume how??!!

i see.. diu lor.. if i take this.. tons of classes = fucking busy = resume good good = summer need to study and no aussiE?!

when i think.. diu lor.. how to get a job.. where to get a job.. and what to work as..

DENGGGGGG!

1 shoot all come in.. diu lor now.. eat shit lo!

I.D.K!!!!

study + working life is not easy at all..

as the commitment to it.. it sounds good..

yes it really does.

measuring from the past achievement..

this is greater than ever..

as in career wise and everything..

on the other hand, i don't know whatever next will be popping up..

it really bothers me.. about the path after graduation..

such as, where to work? as what? continue my master studies after a few years of working?? and etc..

furthermore, talking about my own life..

hmmm.. knowing that.. result, experience meant everything..

i hate this feeling.. it's pestering me every night..

oh gosh! maybe it just seems to be too early for me to think about all these "stuff"

remembering whatever i said.. about doing what and what..

and it seems my own selfishness just take advantage of it..

no doubt.. i am having a good time..

tons of pressure been pushed towards me.. i love it.. it's time to get strong.

at the same time, i made use of the busyness of it to make myself numb and not to think..

yes.. to think about it..

but when the busyness over, i dunno what to say when i looked at myself with those empty promises..

sometime.. i wish.. i could have the choice..

the choice to choose a "win-win" situation and what i want in the future and just get it when the time comes.. rather than going thru all these..

cutting corners is a no no for me..

white lies, empty promises, so called " fake/ unrealistic thinkin"

maybe.. WE are just selfish..

yes.. I am the very selfish one..

i want everything and you..

some said, "life is about making decision, once u made it, just go for it"

it sounds and seems to be easy.. well, yea.. just assemble a few of those alphabet.. do it? get out from here when it come to a situational decision!

till then.. i don't know..

u talk to people about this..

feedback = you think too much..

had you ever step in my shoe and think about it?

it is easy to come up with emotional decision..

will it be easy when it come to a decision making which went through your brain cells and considerations?

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did you ever realized that smile hidden with tears?

did you ever realized a laughter that makes people laugh actually carries huge sadness behind it?

did you ever saw someone is so happy when they see you and they dropped tears behind you?

did you ever realized that something is impossible yet you tried so hard to make it possible?

did you ever realized that when you achieve some whatever thing and you want to share it but you don't get to?

did you ever felt that you're lost yet you do not want someone to worry about it?

did you ever looked at the mirror and lied to yourself that everything will be okay?

did you ever woke up and dropped a tear without a reason?

did you ever torture yourself for not repeating the same thing that you tend to do?

did you ever had the feeling of looking at the phone by not having the courage to call someone?

did you ever tried not to miss someone yet you miss that person to death?

did you ever tried to be a clown just to make someone smile?

will you? drop tears for a person you like? or the person you love?

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