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It's been awhile since i never update my blog.

My life be at a straight line, without much ups and down.

It tend to be routine and i am deeply feeling like i am a robot.

Never a day i stop thinking and getting excited of serving people.

The fact is, what are the satisfaction that i am getting out from it.

Serving people or serving the company?

To me, serving people is to

- give what people what

-solve people's problem

-providing a better living for people

-motivate people

-guiding people.

To me, serving the company is to

-solve the problem of the company is facing

-providing solution for the external customer

-advice what needs to be done.

Merely both are serving but satisfaction is not at the same level.

I used to serve hot food on the plate for tables of hungry guest.

yet, satisfaction is there when food were served right and the most important part is the engagement of

smile on the face rather that the smile in the voice.

I really wondered sometimes, i had faced my death twice.

What am i so afraid of just to get out of my comfort zone just to serve enough people?

Maybe i am afraid of i am not able to survive.

It does bother me the most when i am not even able just to serve people right.

This could just be a minor problem. i could see the basic engagement had started to fade away.

Thank god, it's about at the end and time for decision.

I hope, it could be the right one.